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I am feeling optimistic as well as hopeful and I'm taking steps needed to face all these dilemmas in my life so as to live a deserving life.

I suppose this is what is intended. I guessed the meaning here and there. [note that "and" should not be found twice in a long sentence so close to one another. Just does not work.]

But I am for the breaking up of the sentence. Shorter sentences in the midst of long sentences gives the reader a break as well as enhances the meaning.