contemplating the accumulation

[gemini]

I should not be sitting in this drab, flowerless room, where the curtains were not even drawn to hide the cold rain beating on the windows, or contemplating the accumulation of the past and the duty it imposed on me to sort it out.

Could you help me with the signed part?

[emsr2d2]

I should not be sitting in this drab, flowerless room, where the curtains were not even drawn to hide the cold rain beating on the windows, or contemplating the accumulation of the past and the duty it imposed on me to sort it out.

Could you help me with the signed part?

Thinking about the past and how all the things that have happened in the past have built up to this point. The writer now feels an obligation to sort out the result of all those things that have happened up until now.

[gemini]

Thank you very much teacher emsr2d2

And it contunuing thus:

So I told myself, and with a gesture born of will, as most of my acts were, not inclination, I took the diary out of the box and opened it.


more help please :)

[bhaisahab]

Thank you very much teacher emsr2d2

And it contunuing thus:

So I told myself, and with a gesture born of will, as most of my acts were, not inclination, I took the diary out of the box and opened it.


more help please :)

"So,....... because of my own strength of mind and not because of my nature..."