Please make the following in red clear for me.
I knew I wanted to get healthier. I knew I wanted to get better. But every time I would start it would only last a couple of weeks and I would revert back to drinking. I was so out of shape... And the thing about alcoholism is that it's a very lonely existence. I had to turn things around, otherwise the end result was going to be very, very bad.
Is this saying "people who are addicted to alcohol are very lonely"?
It seems to be saying that, but it's not well-expressed. Alcoholism is not an existence.