asphyxia
Junior Member
- Joined
- Sep 24, 2014
- Member Type
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- Native Language
- Japanese
- Home Country
- Japan
- Current Location
- Poland
The main regret.
When I’m looking back on my life, there is a lot of regrets and bad decisions that I made, but the main regret was spine surgery. Two years ago it turned out that my spine is very weak and I need an operation. After many persuasion from my parents and doctors I agreed to have a surgery and put implant to hold up my spine. The main reason I agreed was telling me that I won’t have a children in the future, because my spine wouldn’t stand it and my life can’t be normal. In the other hand I was scared, because I read about many complications during or after the surgery. Considering pros and cons I made the final decision and I was going to the hospital for one month. Now I regret this, because my back hurts every day and the doctors propose me another surgery to fix it, but my answer is “ thanks, but no thanks”. It is too painful.
Desire to changing my life.
Many people wants to change their life, because from many reason and I need some change too. I want to changed my life so dramatically. I so used to struggling that I couldn’t imagine a life in which every day was easy. I couldn’t grasp the idea that other people’s happiness could be real. I didn’t want to burden other people with my depression, but I tried to act normal. I tried to be like everyone else. I truly trapped in this normal world. Everyday is the same. The University, home. The same boring people, the same problems which day to day are duplicated. I just want to escape to some quiet place on earth where I will not have anything to worry about. Somewhere where there is peace and harmony. Somewhere where the other doesn’t t tell me what to do and how to live.
Thank you for your help.
When I’m looking back on my life, there is a lot of regrets and bad decisions that I made, but the main regret was spine surgery. Two years ago it turned out that my spine is very weak and I need an operation. After many persuasion from my parents and doctors I agreed to have a surgery and put implant to hold up my spine. The main reason I agreed was telling me that I won’t have a children in the future, because my spine wouldn’t stand it and my life can’t be normal. In the other hand I was scared, because I read about many complications during or after the surgery. Considering pros and cons I made the final decision and I was going to the hospital for one month. Now I regret this, because my back hurts every day and the doctors propose me another surgery to fix it, but my answer is “ thanks, but no thanks”. It is too painful.
Desire to changing my life.
Many people wants to change their life, because from many reason and I need some change too. I want to changed my life so dramatically. I so used to struggling that I couldn’t imagine a life in which every day was easy. I couldn’t grasp the idea that other people’s happiness could be real. I didn’t want to burden other people with my depression, but I tried to act normal. I tried to be like everyone else. I truly trapped in this normal world. Everyday is the same. The University, home. The same boring people, the same problems which day to day are duplicated. I just want to escape to some quiet place on earth where I will not have anything to worry about. Somewhere where there is peace and harmony. Somewhere where the other doesn’t t tell me what to do and how to live.
Thank you for your help.