specially, i don' know tense and grammar. i don' know my composition come to understand. please help me~
When I was young, I was aggressive and enthusiastic child. In my childhood was everybody equal, I glowed with pride. I aggressively tried many things with curious glance and sometimes failed, too. But I donít feel small. I leaded my fellows at the head of class and I had a large acquaintance.
However, with advancing years and knowing the world, I found a shabby me. Appearance, academic clique, money and so on. Those things make me grow miserable. I am reluctant to give up such things, ĎI have been a man of that kidney?í I was getting feel of it, disappointed me cling to those things. And when I took a long look at myself, I found that I seriously lost confidence.
So I tried to become a good person or person who is called a man of nice by another people. I would like to be a good person to everyone and then I became a man of lacking backbone. I would like to be a loved person by everyone and then I had been hurt in full of my mind unlike smiling and bright outward appearance. Behaviors that I did to be considerate of other person made me look ludicrously and took greedy away from me. I wished to be a sincere person and treated people truly but that return to me as a gun.
I thought. This is wrong. Obviously I was committing errors. These things were not my looks. The Fear approached beyond me. Suddenly, I found out I had to seek for me than what became a good person. I needed means to take out me. So I begun to write a diary I hadnít ever written. I needed confidence. I needed passion. I recovered myself with writing a diary.
While I have written a diary, I knew the way I take care of me, strengthened my will and set up my sense of values. So, If someone has same agony and standing at the crossroad became an adult, I donít hesitate and will talk them, ďsearch for you!Ē