Whatever.After some meditation, at last I decided what to do with my older brother. Nothing. Let the things go their own way.
So I did that, I did nothing. And it was a mistake, as usual when I am trying to mull things over instead of letting the things go their own way. I should have done something. I should have helped him somehow. I should have given him some money, a helping hand, anything. Tried as never, failed as always. (Is this a Polish phrase? It sounds strange)
If you think I got in a muddle with the whole mull-things-over-let-the-things-go-their-own-way thing, you're wrong. I did not. You must have misunderstood me, which really isn't that astonishing. People misunderstand me all too often, no matter what I say or whether I say anything; silence sometimes tells more than hundreds of words, so how come they should understand my silence?
Anyway, I did fail, and you probably did misunderstand me, completely not surprising disaster. [What is "not surprising disaster"?] Whatever you think now about me, I'm fine with that.
Will be obliged for any comments on this short passage. I hoped to give two meanings to the last 'whatever'; was it clear at first reading?