Interested in Language
Is it possible someone explain this sentences to me.
The first part... okey I understand... But what it means in the following part
I am responsible for putting thet trust there in the first place. I did not earn it as much as demand it by default.
It's a novel written by Jodi Picoult
The paragraph is as follows:
You're staring at me with every step, and at first I'm embarrased - that you should se me like this, wearing convict stripes and stripped down to the very morrw of my faults. I'm too ashamed, at first, to even meet your gaze, but when I do, I'm even more ashamed. I bet you don't realize it, but there's still hope in your eyes. After all this, you still trust me to explain why your life has been upended. I am responsible for putting that trust there in the first place; I did not earn it as much as demand it by default.
it is a novel that a girl is stolen by her father. He tells her thet her mother is died. 28 years later the man gets arrested. and She found out that her father took away her ( when she is 4 years old ) from her mother because she is an alcholic etc etc..
I think perhaps the "by default" means that without her mother, she had no one ELSE to trust when she was a little girl. By default, she had to trust him.
I'm not a teacher, but I write for a living. Please don't ask me about 2nd conditionals, but I'm a safe bet for what reads well in (American) English.
I have no clear idea what the father means when he says he demanded trust by default. Can a person demand something by default? I don't know. To me, to demand something is a positive action at odds with the passivity of doing something by default. And you know, just because Jodi Picoult's an author, it doesn't mean her English is that good!
thank you very much.. to all of you. You've been great