Welcome to the forum.
I don't think we can help you much.
You are going through an understandable state of depression - after ten months in your new country, you are still an outsider, and your lack of success demotivates you. All I can say is that hundreds of thousands of people have experienced similar problems, and most of them have got to the other side of the dark patch. You are young enough to become fluent in time. Try to be patient.
Watch films that you have already seen dubbed into your own language (and enjoyed), then you can relax more, because you have an idea of what is going on. Read books that you have already read and enjoyed in your own language. Try to do things in English that you will enjoy doing.
I have used the word 'enjoy' several times. If you try to use English to give yourself pleasure, things may become easier.
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