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At the university’sWriters’ Workshop, however, she felt lonely----a Mexican American from a poor neighborhood among students from wealthy families. The feeling of being so different helped Cisneros find her “Creative voice.”
“It was not until this moment when I considered myself truly different that my writing acquired a voice. I knew I was a Mexican woman, but I didn’t think it had anything to do with why I felt so much imbalance in my life, but it had everything to do with it! That’s when I decided I would write about something my classmates cannot write about.
What does the underlined sentence mean? It sounds quite contradictory.
What do the two "it"s refer to respectively?
Thanks for your help!
The first it refers to 'being a Mexican woman' and the second to 'feeling so much imbalance in my life'.