Yes, it is rather confusing. One way to become a better writer is to write shorter sentences. Your sentences tend to be too long and drift away from the central meaning of the sentence. I have no idea of what the first sentence means and the conclusion seems to be unrelated to the rest of the text. I suggest that you spend some time reading so that you will get a better idea of how English is written. I advise my students to read, "The Old Man and the Sea", by Ernest Hemingway. Hemingway tended to write in short sentences and he still conveyed a strong meaning in his novels.
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