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A month went by in this manner, but a month was all I could bear.
The memory of Marguerite accompanied me wherever I went. I had loved that woman --still loved her-- too much for her suddenly to mean nothing to me. Whatever feelings I might have for her now, I had to see her again. At once.
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I had loved her so much that I could not adjust to the idea that she no longer meant anything to me.