Interested in Language
Can anbody enlighten me on the meaning of the sentence bellow?
"Not to a crocus, not to a bird of spring, was I beholden for my awakening when finally one afternoon I let myself out of the study by a back door and fled, resolved upon flight indeed, in quest of Miriam."
The Dark Chamber by Leonard Cline, 1927
The flowering of crocuses and similar early-flowering plants, and the re-appearance of birds which have over-wintered in warmer countries, are well known signs of Spring, when the earth "awakens" from its winter slumbers. The author is saying that his own awakening (deciding to do something) was nothing to do with these signs of Spring, but was caused by a desire to find Miriam. He fled (ran away), determined to actually fly (like a bird, or by aeroplane? I don't know the story) in search of Miriam.
I'm not a teacher of English, but I have spoken it for (almost) all of my life....