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"Still there came now and again swift, strange pangs memorial of that past agony, and sudden fits of weeping shook me. But, one dream with another, the scene was inexpressibly delightful. The sole avenue open to the forces of mental dismofort was the budding sense of insecurity. Pleasures and pains alike had no obvious source; their function and puropse were still obscure. The question arouse: Are all these phenomena detached? Or, in a word, Am I insane?"
Aleister Crowley, The Drug, 1909
The only option available to someone feeling uneasy about something was to become more and more insecure.