Student or Learner
I used to think that one day I'd be able to resolve the different drives I have in different directions, the tension between the different people I am. Now I realize that is who I am, and I'm more content to be discontent.
--- Does it mean I'm happy to be unhappy
- Sort of.
Actually, it means exactly what you write, which is that now you're content to be discontent, which may not be quite the same thing as happy/unhappy.
Also, please consider something like the following for your first sentence:
I used to think that one day I'd be able to resolveBefore your final sentence of "Now I realize ...," you might want to include an additional sentence (or more) that explains what those conflicting internal drives are.
the different drives I have in different directions, the tension between the different people I ammy conflicting internal drives.