drenched in thoughts

[rainous]

"I often find myself drenched in thoughts thinking I might as well just give it all up and jump into the river."

Can anyone please help me find and correct any grammatical problems in this sentence, if there is any?

I am especially not happy with the underlined part which seems somewhat redundant.
But I don't know how I should fix it.
Suggestions please~

Thanks

It's not me by the way.

[5jj]

"I often find myself drenched in thoughts, thinking I might as well just give it all up and jump into the river."

With the comma, it's acceptable grammatically. 'Drenched in thoughts' sounds very unnatural to me. I cannot think of an alternative that really covers it. All I can come up with is "I often find myself overwhelmed by thoughts of giving it all up and jumping into the river", but I am not sure that that's what you want to say.