Personal Letter

[zarafee]

I put in writing what i have been trying to explain to my Doc.
please mark and correct

I have to come to term with these unusual thoughts that suddenly strike me, although I turn to manage to control and squeeze these unclear voices to a lesser degree, but it is coming at a heavy cost….I am battered to pieces… I feel a maniac urge to follow my within in order to get to satisfy my eagerness to relax/ relief ?…. or is it ?!. I feel I m in need to obeying my within , the non control state, quite known to me, nevertheless, it does remain dangerous as I turn to submit to my unconsciousness, unaware of the surroundings.
I am tired and that is a no wonder, what I am seeing is more then people could visualize, my mind is stretched to such extent so to fit my within world, I m working non stop , I need to have a rest somehow.

[zarafee]

Sorry, here is the letter. Please correct .


I have to come to term with these unusual jumbled thoughts that suddenly strike me, although I turn
to manage to control and squeeze these unclear familiar voices to a lesser degree, but that is coming at a
heavy cost….I am battered to pieces… I feel a maniac urge to follow my within so to get relaxed
/ relief ?…. or is it ?!. I feel I m in need to obeying my within: " the non control state". It is quite
known to me, nevertheless it does remain dangerous as I turn to submit to my unconsciousness,
unaware of the surroundings.
I am tired and that is no wonder. What I am seeing is more then people could visualize, my mind is
stretched to such extent so to fit my within world, I m working non stop , I need to have a rest
somehow.
Im living another life or perhaps a new disoriented phase. My past living memories and toughts have
been crushed and badly beatten, the energy that had bounded me to my past world have
dissapaered and vinished, I can't beleive that i am a being with a vague empty silence past, my
relations with my homeland is much heavier then a robe that would snapped under starin. I am in a
constant suffering, crule pain is slamming my inside, i am about to crack ...BUT i am refusing to .

[Anglika]

Originally Posted by zarafee

I have to come to term with these unusual thoughts that suddenly strike me. Although I can manage to control and squeeze these unclear voices to some degree, it is coming at a heavy cost….I am battered to pieces… I feel a manic/insane urge to follow my internal orders so that I can relax/get relief

I am tired and that is no wonder. What I am seeing is more than people canvisualize. My mind is stretched to such extent that I am working non-stop. I need to rest somehow.

I'm living another life or perhaps a new disoriented phase. My memories and thoughts have been crushed and badly beaten, the energy that bound me to my homeland has disappeared and vanished. I just can't believe that my link with my past has become a vague empty silence as if it was a rope that snapped under strain.

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[zarafee]

I just don't know how to thank you . thank you so much . I appologize for my "headeck wiritng" .

[Anglika]

No need to apologize. It's just that if this is really happening to you, I am truly sorry.