Dearest,
First of all your post and the sentiment shared, although a bit sad, is not uncommon at all. Having worked for more than 15 years as an English teacher and official Cambridge examiner, I can assure you that you are not alone.
Before anything else, you should understand that the IELTS 8 requirement is a tough nut to crack. If compared with other well-known certificates, IELTS grade 8 is equivalent or close to the C score on the CPE and above 105 on the TOEFL iBT. What this means is that the requirements for you are situated at the highest band in the world.
The experience you have regarding your own English is the result of the principle of proximity to excellence. The better English you have, the more difficult it can be to detect your progress. Language learning then is somewhat of a curve, which can be said to increase rapidly for basic students, less so for intermediate and pre-advanced, then flattening out from advanced to fluent/proficient.
The trouble you have in progressing can be the result of one of more of the following aspects:
- You spend too much time on mock exams and too little on studying English
- You spend too much time on English and too little on exam strategy
- You have reached your own threshold or horizon and will only improve marginally regardless of how much you study.
(for a brief discussion on
IELTS exam strategy versus language study, visit the site
IELTS Pass.)
Don't give up at feel free to contact me for further ideas and suggestions.
The very best,