The Crow
Last Friday, on my way back to the company I work for, I killed a crow [STRIKE]bird[/STRIKE].
I had never killed [STRIKE]the [/STRIKE] a crow before. As a lorry driver, I had killed many pigeons, at least a dozen the last five years, and I am not very proud of it. However, after some time, I [STRIKE]became [/STRIKE]reconciled myself to [STRIKE]happening it[/STRIKE]doing it sometimes and to [STRIKE][STRIKE]having no any influence on it [/STRIKE][/STRIKE] and not be affected by it. At [STRIKE]first stage[/STRIKE] the beginning, when I killed [STRIKE]one of[/STRIKE] the first pigeon, I explained [STRIKE]it [/STRIKE]to myself it was just a stupid bird but my feelings were far from[STRIKE] settling[/STRIKE] settled for quite a while. Once, I got very angry when a pigeon destroyed a mirror [STRIKE]in[/STRIKE] of the lorry by hitting it and killing[STRIKE] himself[/STRIKE] itself instantly making a [STRIKE]wreath [/STRIKE] shower of [STRIKE]down [/STRIKE] feathers [STRIKE]hanging[/STRIKE] in the air for a while like exploded snowing ball and then snowing down. I don’t know how much a new mirror [STRIKE]were[/STRIKE] cost but I know my boss didn’t believe my story at all. Speaking with other drivers, I found out it is quite common among pigeons to die this way and after another occurrence I got a sudden enlightenment. I realized that pigeons are not stupid. On the contrary, they are unbelievably clever. I came to the conclusion pigeons commit suicides this way as soon as they realize how cruel the world is and how pointless life is in it. I also have been persuaded by the way pigeons were doing it. They would always [STRIKE]came[/STRIKE] come out of nowhere [STRIKE]with [/STRIKE] at an incredible speed usually [STRIKE]changing theirs flying route[/STRIKE] veering straight into an oncoming lorry[STRIKE] not [/STRIKE] without giving [STRIKE]me[/STRIKE] the driver any chance to avoid it and without [STRIKE]hurting [/STRIKE] posing a risk to others [STRIKE]people[/STRIKE] on the motorway. And then – bang! The remains of the corpse, feathers and often [STRIKE]sheet[/STRIKE] on lorry, broken mirror or sometimes even cracked window screen. Instant death. Another pigeon left his troubles behind by committing[STRIKE] selfish [/STRIKE]suicide selfishly and sowing my soul with grieve and remorse for rest of the day.
But let’s go back to the crow.
Crows are another matter. They never ever commit suicide. It seems they want to stay on this world no matter how cruel it is. They seem just [STRIKE]don’t [/STRIKE] not to care about it. It rather looks like they have different problem in their heads and to be honest I do not have any idea what it [STRIKE]can[/STRIKE] could be but one thing I am quite certain is that they, because of that, don’t give a damn about what is going on in this world [STRIKE]about[/STRIKE]. Crows are very happy about what they find on roads and motorways though. They realize that many pigeons, and in particular, rabbits, mice, rats and other rodents, give up their [STRIKE]lifes[/STRIKE] lives under a vehicle’s wheels and becoming an excellent source of food. One can see crows on the road feasting on corpses every single day if they happen to be [STRIKE]on the trip[/STRIKE] passing by. Crows don’t give a hoot to oncoming lorries or other[STRIKE]s[/STRIKE] wheeled monsters, and very reluctantly leaving the table (?) just in time and getting back before wind being sacked behind the vehicle disappear (?) making birds' feathers dancing in the air for a while as if they [STRIKE]got [/STRIKE] are still alive.
I thought, it is quite easy to be clever enough to commit suicide like a pigeon but how clever one has to be knowing the world and behave like a crow? Or… how stupid…
Anyway…, I completely fell in love with crows so imagine how [STRIKE]did[/STRIKE] I fell last Friday, but don’t pick your nose when I spin a yarn…