shootingstar
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Nora let out a deep exhale. 'Dan wasn't like that.'
'People change,' said Mrs Elm, still looking at the chessboard. Her hand lingered over a bishop.
Nora re-thought. 'Or maybe he was like that and I just didn't see it.'
'So,' wondered Mrs Elm, looking at Nora. 'What are you feeling?'
'Like I still want to die. I have wanted to die for quite a while. I have carefully calculated that the pain of me living as the bloody disaster that is myself is greater than the pain anyone will feel if I were to die. In fact, I'm sure it would be a relief. I'm not useful to anyone.
(The Midnight Library by Matt Haig, episode The Chessboard)
Do you read "want" in "Like I still want to die" as the subjunctive or not?
'People change,' said Mrs Elm, still looking at the chessboard. Her hand lingered over a bishop.
Nora re-thought. 'Or maybe he was like that and I just didn't see it.'
'So,' wondered Mrs Elm, looking at Nora. 'What are you feeling?'
'Like I still want to die. I have wanted to die for quite a while. I have carefully calculated that the pain of me living as the bloody disaster that is myself is greater than the pain anyone will feel if I were to die. In fact, I'm sure it would be a relief. I'm not useful to anyone.
(The Midnight Library by Matt Haig, episode The Chessboard)
Do you read "want" in "Like I still want to die" as the subjunctive or not?